have a merry merry un-birthday!

not my unbirthday, but my rebirth-day. well, technically it's tomorrow, June 19. but w/e. i'll have been a Christian for 4 years as of tomorrow around 8 or 9 PM. pretty sweet, huh? some crazy stuff has gone down since then. i finished my list of stupidity (otherwise known as all the things i thought teenagers do, which it turns out we do), realized how much i hated finishing the list of stupidity, did more stupid things, did smart things, traversed parts of a more civilized place called Europe (where i also did stupid things), became lovable in a cute and cuddly way, and hopefully passed my SAT's. and what have i learned? lots of things. one, hannibal was fricking sweet. not the serial killer, but the big black guy who almost took over italy. he was pretty cool for a general dude. two, hair dye is your best friend as a pseudo-rebel. lolz. also, do not pierce your own ears, mostly because the aim will most likely be off. i know, i've tried. but on a more serious, obnoxiously religious note, i've learned that God has mercy. sometimes it doesn't feel like it, i've been through enough to know that sometimes He feels distant and spiteful. i mean, my life systematically falls apart, even when i DON'T help it along. and it sucks. but all the times i've screwed up, i've been picked back up. i mean, I'M STILL ALIVE. i didn't really expect that, to be honest. for pete's sake, my own head works against me half the time. but i'm still here. and thats something to celebrate. i'm not trying to sound completely self-absorbed, i' just trying to use myself as an example. i've literally had people tell me they're surprised i've survived this long. what i'm trying to say? God forgives and forgets, even when our bodies and minds don't. i'm living proof of God's mercy, because they're no way in hell i could have survived without someone watching over me. P.S., check out joshua james, he's my current obsession. folk music at it's finest! link here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7ihisZL3X9o