Never Have I Ever....

I find it a funny game. You go around the group and say "never have I ever...." *insert inappropriate actions here* Sometimes, when you play with more sophisticated people, you talk about countries you've been to or something of that nature. But the bottom line is: you want to distinguish yourself from others by using generally degrading things. What if you played with Jesus?

Is being a team player another way of being forced to conform???

I'm reading my Sociology book, working on an assignment that is due today. Yes, I procrastinated. Anyways, it has brought up a question. It imitates the joke about being taught that your spoon is an airplane, then being told later not to play with your food. Confusing, right? Funny? Definitely. But developmentally, this is a problem. Not the airplane, but team sports. I mean think about it, at a young age our parents shove us into sports or groups to learn how to act. "See how Angie listens to her mommy? You should play with Angie..." But what happens when Angie becomes a slut or drug addict? Then it's "you better not hang out with Angie, she's a bad influence..." Wouldn't it be easier to teach your kids how to be themselves and think critically? I know that developmentally they are unable to think abstractly, but putting rules in place and teaching them to follow those rules regardless of peers seems like it would be more productive......... "If all your friends were going to jump off a cliff, would you?" "Well, if none of the other mom's said that, would you????"

Blinded by God

I am a Christian. Hopefully people can tell from my actions. Sure, I'm working through stuff, so not everything checks out just yet. I've screwed up, I'll admit it. But I've watched Christians my entire life, taking mental notes about behavior amongst other Christians and also those of other religions. I have a bit of a knack for psychology and sociology, so my observations can be held to some standard. And this is all generalities, I understand not everyone is like this, just a big enough population to notice and categorize.
Anyways, I've noticed something. Christians are so obsessed with looking good in front of God, that they forget to look at themselves from the worlds perspective. Yes, we need to be set apart, but that shouldn't be because everyone else despises us. I know so many non-Chrisians that won't hang out with Christians because they're so stuck up. With our focus in truth and being set apart, I think we might forget that we're supposed to be an example of love, when all we talk about is the shortcomings of others. Also, why should we hold the rest of the world to our standards? We would be offended if a Muslim man forced me to wear a hijab, but find it acceptable to force others to conform to our laws. Enough ranting for today. Feel free to discuss, all 4 of you who read this... :)

There's No Such Thing As Crazy

i know that nobody actually reads this, save like 3 people... maybe. but whatever. atleast my thoughts get out there. i have a big pet peeve, which i've discussed before to some extent. no body knows about mental illness, right? but does that make it any less of an illness? today in my behavioral sciences class i got into a little spat with some skinny, stuck up chick that obviously just wanted the easy A. i, for one, was extremely excited to take a class where i got a taste of what the rest of my life will hopefully look like. anyways, we were talking about kip kinkel after watching a video about him. we were discussing whether or not he should be moved to a mental facility instead of prison, which would probably be torture for someone with schizophrenia, which is believed to be what kip has. if you don't know who he is, he is the guy who shot kids at his school the year before columbine happened. his sentence and other things were influenced greatly by columbine, because the general public was especially fired up. when being questioned, and was later revealed in his journals, is that he heard voices compelling him to kill his parents and go shoot up his school. this was not the only reason he did it, but quite possibly the main reason. the jury is still out on this. anyways, i was advocating for his transfer to a mental institution so he could receive adequate care. then miss know-it-all decided to comment that he shouldn't get special treatment and that he obviously has a choice. to which i sort of lost control and asked her if she had any experience with mental illness, to which she replied no. then our teacher shut us down, but i was livid and started crying a little. see, when i'm pissed, i cry. it's probably left over from when i was little and no one listened when i told them what was wrong, they would just decide to let whoever was picking on me go, and blame me for everything. yes, bad memories. i am also extremely tired for some odd reason. so now i'm sitting behind a computer keyboard with a grudge and some eloquently worded jabs that will be forthcoming. are you saying that i woke up one day and chose to have violent moodswings during which i am either on the couch crying or sullen, or laughing hysterically and losing control of my words and actions? and i have MILD bi-polar. yeah, have you ever thought what it would be like to have imaginary voices in your head telling you to kill people? or to have absolutely no desire to be around people, or watch a movie, or do anything you enjoy? or be so afraid of everything you're constantly shaking? i found out recently that i might have an anxiety disorder on top of the ADD and bi-polar. granted, my bi-polar and ADD aren't that severe. luckily i can still function and communicate with some "normalcy." and you know what? i'm not going to shut up. ever. most people who are "sane" enough to fit in with society are too scared to say anything to speak up for themselves. guess what, i'm not gonna stand for that. it's highly likely that my offspring will have a mental disorder, i know the statistics well enough to be almost positive of that. and there is no way in hell that they're going to think there's something "wrong" with them. there's a little girl at my church who has a tumor and under-developed kidneys. i honestly don't know the family more than a 'hi' when passing by (i go to a huge church, OK?). but my point is, would you tell that little angel's family that she chose to have a tumor? no. then why do we blame kids and adults with mental illnesses for their sickness? personally, i look to my fellow crazy and call myself bi-winning. (PS heres the site for the little girl. http://princessmaggie.com/Princess_Magdalene/About_Me.html her name is Maggie. my prayers are constantly with the family... )