i was taking a shower and i had an epiphany.
i am an all or nothing person. either I'm perfect, or a rowdy child with a police record or something. get what I'm saying. i, personally, do not act in a passive, or even just a neutral way.
i imagined this as if i were digging to China with this emotion, whatever it is. i imagine maybe once i hit rock bottom with whatever i do I'll just go over to my metaphorical Japan, since it is near China, and start shoveling back through to Australia or England or something. maybe I'll go to Russia next. eventually this metaphorical me will implode from lack of stability. i imagine maybe all people are like their own planet, maybe there is just one or two holes on their surface, or maybe there are many that are covered up by civilizations of various diversities. how many of us explore these 'civilizations' to discover whether or not it is just a scam to divert your attention from the big crater in the center?
