Musings of a Beggar

i am listening to a song by a friends band, i am band. the song is beggar. it talks about being human, just like you, and having everything on top of you. i know this feeling very intimately, we are lovers, have had many encounters with it on street corners. she is a cruel mistress. one of the lines is something to the effect of, i can't believe the world has treated me this badly. this one i know even better than having the world atop my shoulders. i was talking to the school counselor the other day about everything going wrong, which it seems to be doing all the time. she looked at me and said i could get through it, because I've made it through being ostracized for taking the fall for things i had done, what i hadn't even done, and made it through without dying. realizing that gave me strength. but sometimes making it through isn't as important as how you get there.
that's not the point. the point goes back to wondering how the world can do this to you. the world, satan, demons, etc., only go after the ones who can make a big difference in the world. that gives me more comfort than anything else I've ever heard. because, for some of us, we go through crap. a lot of it. and the only light i can see is doing something great for the kingdom. that is the light at the end of my long tunnel. and when the tunnel feels like it's closing in, i have to remember who i am, and that i must have a pretty big purpose, or else the snowballs wouldn't keep flying so fast and furious.

last thing, i really want you guys to do something for me. spread my blog to 5 people. i want to see what we could possibly do as a community for orphaned anythings, lost causes, and beggars. i truly believe that music is the best medicine, and second best is philosophy. maybe we could become a big community of lesser knowns. that's who i am, a lesser known. but not all of us beggars, lesser knowns, and lost causes are saved. not as in accepting Christ, but saved from themselves. please and thank you.