from my old blog on myspace

July 07-
does the rest of the world see me as completely crazy? not that thats a bad thing, im just wondering cuz on saturday my mom said that people keep asking if i take acting classes or something and that made me laugh........but really do i need to stop acting so crazy? or does my love and compassion overide all the stupid things i do? today someone told me that they wanted to take me home cuz i was helping at a wedding, is that the real me? or my creative highs (that are supposedly unhealthy says my phsyciatrist)? when im with my best friend laughing? or when im with my saturday lunch group busting a gut? acting all emo and scaring my friends? or being the good little christian girl who helps in primary?

seriously, think about it, whats the real you? the person you hide from your parents or the person they see?

truelly i think that maybe the real you is a combination that perfects itself with help from those you love, when you get in trouble or witness a death, when you rely on someone and they tell you the right thing or when you make monumental mistakes that impact you forever, when you accomplish something for the first time or fail dismally, or even just have coffee with your best friend in the world..... thats what perfects you, gains and loses, trust and failure, accomplishments and forgiveness when you shouldnt be forgiven. everyone learns from something, someone, or somewhere........to be themselves. i dont think i could servive without about all the people ive ever met... because in some little way everyone ive ever met has impacted my life and taught me something. i wouldnt be here today without so many people, from random passersby to those ive known my whole life to the three awsome peeps i met in the phsyc ward and kyles sis sarah to the eye kandy at the powell pool; everyone, in some little way, has done something to me in some way that has impacted me. thats kind of scary to think about, i mean people are then effected by me and what i do, which effects them so they effect someone else, and so on.......WOW! so i am important!..........kool!!!!